Thursday, January 8, 2015
Hi there world,
Sorry I haven't wrote much lately, been busy experiencing the world or in other words growing up. So much has happened since I last wrote something here, so much has changed but the intriguing thing is that the same reason that brought me here many years ago still bring me back here. A time when you think your voice is unheard, you write into this infinite space called the internet, hoping that someone else in the world is listening to you and understanding you. That feeling is something that you'll never grow out of but maybe feel it ever increasing as you grow up.
So where do I begin, lets see. I've since graduated uni went on a lovely holiday to explore more of the world, something that is so beautiful, something that should be the necessity in one's life but not a luxury, to learn, to grow, to discover... that is suppose to be the essence of life. But since graduating, I feel that society has pushed for young people to already know who they want to be and become in a short period of time, maybe even before entering university. Ironically, the same society breeds the "you're a chosen one" mentality into young ones, making them grow into the illusion that they have a purpose here, that they are special and that they are meant to do great things, but lack the infrastructure to allow each and every young aspiring talent flourish.
Graduating university is like a push into society, you've got your paper now time to go fend yourself, it's like a kick off the cliff into an alternate universe where it's make or break.
I know that many of us couldn't wait to grow up, do what we want without having the need to listen to our parents. As that day of independence grew closer, so did the increasing responsibilities not only to ourself but to others. Many a times have I asked myself "Why should or Why do I care?" followed by "Does it really matter to me". Moments where I got upset and frustrated by things that I believe shouldn't, the self conflict. Slowly, growing up doesn't seem that pleasant anymore, to face the harsh truth of life, that life is filled more with irony and contradictions, in other words "choices", each with its repercussions. With that comes the art of buying time, making things continue without making a conscious choice, we all do it, going to a crazy extend just to make things last a little longer. In truth, we are digging our own graves, sooner or later, we're stuck in our own hole until we make a choice.
In the moment, I've lost myself, who am I, who do I want to become, aimless and lonely. Is it right to want to be alone, or is it an excuse to escape?
The dream of being someone significant in this world only becomes a reality for that very few that perseveres through the harshness of reality and do something. For those who don't believe in luck, I can assure you, you would need a lot of luck, for what is the point having a dream when the timing, people, tools and everything in between isn't ready for your dream.
I apologise for my scattered thoughts.
but when will I truly be me?
-The person that might go unheard - voice of a generation?
Sorry I haven't wrote much lately, been busy experiencing the world or in other words growing up. So much has happened since I last wrote something here, so much has changed but the intriguing thing is that the same reason that brought me here many years ago still bring me back here. A time when you think your voice is unheard, you write into this infinite space called the internet, hoping that someone else in the world is listening to you and understanding you. That feeling is something that you'll never grow out of but maybe feel it ever increasing as you grow up.
So where do I begin, lets see. I've since graduated uni went on a lovely holiday to explore more of the world, something that is so beautiful, something that should be the necessity in one's life but not a luxury, to learn, to grow, to discover... that is suppose to be the essence of life. But since graduating, I feel that society has pushed for young people to already know who they want to be and become in a short period of time, maybe even before entering university. Ironically, the same society breeds the "you're a chosen one" mentality into young ones, making them grow into the illusion that they have a purpose here, that they are special and that they are meant to do great things, but lack the infrastructure to allow each and every young aspiring talent flourish.
Graduating university is like a push into society, you've got your paper now time to go fend yourself, it's like a kick off the cliff into an alternate universe where it's make or break.
I know that many of us couldn't wait to grow up, do what we want without having the need to listen to our parents. As that day of independence grew closer, so did the increasing responsibilities not only to ourself but to others. Many a times have I asked myself "Why should or Why do I care?" followed by "Does it really matter to me". Moments where I got upset and frustrated by things that I believe shouldn't, the self conflict. Slowly, growing up doesn't seem that pleasant anymore, to face the harsh truth of life, that life is filled more with irony and contradictions, in other words "choices", each with its repercussions. With that comes the art of buying time, making things continue without making a conscious choice, we all do it, going to a crazy extend just to make things last a little longer. In truth, we are digging our own graves, sooner or later, we're stuck in our own hole until we make a choice.
In the moment, I've lost myself, who am I, who do I want to become, aimless and lonely. Is it right to want to be alone, or is it an excuse to escape?
The dream of being someone significant in this world only becomes a reality for that very few that perseveres through the harshness of reality and do something. For those who don't believe in luck, I can assure you, you would need a lot of luck, for what is the point having a dream when the timing, people, tools and everything in between isn't ready for your dream.
I apologise for my scattered thoughts.
but when will I truly be me?
-The person that might go unheard - voice of a generation?
silenced at 1/08/2015 05:16:00 PM
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Has the proper form of blogging been ousted by the microwave era's new version of it, "Micro-Blogging", in other words "Tweeting"?In my very very humble opinion is yes. I remember the days when I use to write things and going on and on about certain things and using nice words that rhyme just to elaborate a single point. Now, I'm usually tweeting down to 150 characters, that includes space between words.
What happened to the days when we wrote things poetically, not that I think I ever had. But anyhow, what happened to pages and pages of words that was filled with emotions and ideas.
Well, I guess they are still there, transformed into a 150 character sentence, just gotta jump on the bandwagon and get use to crying and laughing within the same minute.
As for now, life is going good, but new challenges lie ahead, yet I smell progress coming my way!!
silenced at 1/22/2011 07:11:00 AM
Sunday, September 5, 2010
I have been listening to this song lately.Enjoy..
brings you back to love, don't give up on it, remember when you were naive and believed in your relationship, believing in love and got strucked down?
But I urge you never give up. There is love out there. Make every relationship special, keep going the extra mile. Do what you would do for your first relationship. When you were that madly in love teenager!
It's not stupid to think that the relationship you are in is THE ONE even when you had previously said it to other previous relationships. Keep working on it, keep believing in it, keep having faith in it. LOVE the person as it was THE ONE!
Our child ways is what brings joy
silenced at 9/05/2010 11:56:00 PM
Hi there,
I admit that I havent been posting much since last year. Because of my mediocre life.. or that I have taken my life into privacy mode. I wish I would type as much as I use to, but there just doesnt seem like anything big is happening that I want to share.
YES, I have been dating, for nearly a year now. soon :) that's a good thing. But have been trying to keep that low key. Other than that, I haven't found anything super uber exciting to share with people. :P
Anyway, I am going off to the snow next week, that should be nice, haven't seen snow for years!
I think I would start posting photos and sharing photos, so at least people can see what am I up to!
as they say, photos say a million words
I got a new puppy, a dachshund, in other terms, a sausage dog :)
silenced at 9/05/2010 11:15:00 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Life really has been going at its full speed without really giving you time to digest all that has been ingested or injected or even shoved right into you. I really feel this season of life is really challenging in the sense of finding who you ware and sticking up to your identity when people pull you down and have doubts about you.It is like you are now breaking grounds where relationships have never been before, testing the waters and changing people's concepts of you as you slowly mold yourself. Time passes by and characteristics pass by to, people's goals change, people's idea of their dreams change as time after time has proven to have alter through the various choices.
Ever so yet, the choices I have made thus far has made me understand myself a bit more and the people around me. Hearts were pushed around and thrown around in order for people to pay attention to its desires, but yet, it still falls short of what people choose to believe in. People would say that the choices you make are not good enough, but doubt not, lets embrace it and make the most out of it.
Life really has come a long way from the naive blissful nature and is going to get a bit more woeful if things don't really come to certain circumstances set by you or others. A mutual ground that is far from being discovered hence there will never be equality towards each others loves.
Shouts and screams and even loving advice that has been repeated too often that it turns a person sour when ever so often repeated has been surrounding my woeful self. I wonder if I could ever believe that there is a time where ignorance would take place without the guild of lying to others or to yourself that everything will be ok will exist due to the endless search of common grounds. Maybe until then, voice raising and loud shouting will just be a common sight or just pain to the ears.
I have constant thoughts of just being alone in deep serenity and a get away from the world to only select what I want to do or who would be around me and what they would say to me, excusing myself from the pain. But yet, how am suppose to do this when, all we get is everyone sense that they need to work things out together. But currently, the situation resides in me, I really wish I could just be alone and not drown in your words...
In the end, you cry and I cry, why don't we just flood this town tonight so that I might drown and you could flood on me...
silenced at 8/15/2010 03:03:00 PM
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Sent from my HTC
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