Recently there has been a dramatic decline in blogging frequency. I wonder what caused this? Do you think because everything has become normal and that I have settled in that nothing seem worth blogging about or is it that my life has turned into some sorta routine that there is nothing more to elaborate?
But this doesnt mean that the situation of me loving to blog has changed. That stays solid. Hmmmmm, you reckon?
Anyway, I have been through hell, exaggerating, and rising up again like a Phoenix. hahaha, such crappy saying. This is life, its up and down.. like what people call it, a rollacoster ride, so cliche. But the thing is, this is so much scarier than that little train that just goes round and round. You wanna know why?
Because in a rollacoster, safety is at utmost importance, thus nor much worries. But life, has no safety net, or at least there is one, but sometimes none. And you cant expect how the ride is going to be. It is full of suspense. Not like a rollacoster, once its going up really slow, you know its gonna come down fast and you are already anticipating for it.
Well, here is something about life if you havent already known. The word that alarms around uni or during class the most is "This is UNFAIR" in various accents. Sorry to serve it up to you, but life is unfair. Just suck it all up and just accept it. What on earth is fair? Life still moves on, so quit lamenting that things should be better for you since you are doing such a good deed! GROW UP! But on a further notice, what goes around comes around, maybe some day soon, its all gonna be good :D
silenced at 5/30/2009 12:58:00 PM
Monday, May 25, 2009
Et s’il fallait le faire
S’il fallait le faire, j’arrêterais la terre J’éteindrais la lumière, que tu restes endormi S’il fallait pour te plaire lever des vents contraires Dans un désert sans vie, je trouverais la mer
Et s’il fallait le faire, j’arrêterais la pluie Elle fera demi-tour le reste de nos vies S’il fallait pour te plaire t’écouter chaque nuit Quand tu parles d’amour, j’en parlerais aussi
Que tu regardes encore dans le fond de mes yeux Que tu y vois encore le plus grand des grands feux Et que ta main se colle sur ma peau, où elle veut Un jour si tu t’envoles, je suivrais, si je peux
Et s’il fallait le faire, je repousserais l’hiver A grands coups de printemps et de longs matins clairs S’il fallait pour te plaire, j’arrêterais le temps Que tous tes mots d’hier restent à moi maintenant
Que je regarde encore dans le bleu de tes yeux Que tes deux mains encore se perdent dans mes cheveux Je ferai tout plus grand et si c’est trop ou peu J’aurais tort tout le temps, si c’est ça que tu veux
Je veux bien tout donner, si seul’ment tu y crois Mon cœur veut bien saigner, si seul’ment tu le vois Jusqu’à n’être plus rien que l’ombre de tes nuits Jusqu’à n’être plus rien qu’une ombre qui te suit
Et s’il fallait le faire
English Translation And If It Had To Be Done
If it had to be done, I would stop the earth I would turn off the light so that you stay asleep If it had to be done to please you, raising opposite winds In a desert without life, I would find the sea
And if it had to be done, I would stop the rain It will turn around the rest of our lives If it had to be done to please you, listening to you every night When you speak of love, I would speak of it too
So you still look into the depth of my eyes So you still see in there the biggest of the big fires And so your hand clings to my skin where it wants to If you fly away one day, I would follow if I could
And if it had to be done, I would repel the winter With hard blows of springtime and long clear mornings If it had to be done to please you, I would stop the time So all your words of yesterday stay with me now
So I still look into the blue of your eyes So your two hands still get lost in my hair I will make everything bigger and if it’s too much or too little I would be wrong all the time, if that’s what you want
I do want to give everything, if only you believe in it My heart does want to bleed, if only you see it Until being nothing more but the shadow of your nights Until being nothing more but a shadow that follows you
And if it had to be done
silenced at 5/25/2009 11:36:00 PM
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Knock, knock.
Knock on my door.
I slept, but my heart is awake.
My lover is knocking on the door.
I chose to walk through the door to love and not walk pass it.
I'll walk every road in the maze just to find where you are. To lead you out from lost.
I rather be weak and be in your arms. Rather than Trying to be strong and stand alone, allowing pride to consume me.
Written by me(but inspired from Thomas Hanson's talk)
silenced at 5/20/2009 10:51:00 PM
Saturday, May 16, 2009
This entire week hasnt been the best. All I can feel is crashing into walls after walls. Conflicts, bad luck, miscommunication and that stupid paranoid brain of mine... What else can do you think can keep shoving me right into the wall... If you can think of any, please, dont hesitate to write it down on my comment box.
Monday - Wednesday was just horrid and trauma but all went well on Thursday as fresh air and Friday came as an unexpected nuclear bomb that would only target one person. But seriously, this nuclear bomb was contagious. My negativity was spreading like a pandemic! Yikes!
About my paranoia, it grows in my head and it has to be KILLED! I am always expecting for the worst, but I dont want the worst to happen. Who does?!?!?! Its this really shaky period that makes me so. All the insecurity. But yet, I wanna stay on this bandwagon to see what good outcome will happen to me. For good things come for those who wait. But never the less, dont be so naive, be prepared for the worst as well but ALWAYS! I mean ALWAYS! FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE SIDE!
I just need to get a grip of myself. Life is positive when you see it positively, but the opposite happens when you do the other. People will pull you down, but keep your head up. Right now, my negativity is bringing a crash into my world. Stop right now to prevent it from happening. I wanna be the happy me again in this world of mine.
The power for it to slip away is in my own hands...
PS: Dont complain nor feel negative over things you cant control.
silenced at 5/16/2009 01:38:00 PM
Friday, May 8, 2009
I've havent been updating my blog lately as all the surprises in life and the spices has become idle for the moment. I guess....
There hasnt been anything significant going around lately, but yet I still feel fine and content. But at certaint times I do miss home and mum and dad and my sisters but not to the extend of depression.
As for studies, I really got to step up to the occasion and yes, I've been slowly improving.. But I need to improve fast. Sometimes thinking that I am to do Med, I kinda freak out. I am not too sure about it myself. Insecurities such as lack of faith in myself, thinking is this the pathway I really want and so much more. Sometimes all this thinking is just too overwhelming in a bad way that it clogs up my brain and thus inhibits my ability to focus on whats really important at present.
I really have grown in terms of maturity in mentality though I have so much more to learn yet. Sometimes I think ahead too much but it doesnt really help me as that is not whats gonna bring me far. I know dreams makes things endless but it doesnt work that way if you dont take a first step.
I do at certain times strat comparing myself with others and making myself feel miserable. And for that, my cousins have been telling me to be thankful for is given to you and not compare. And to build self confidence.
I really need a sign on what I really wanna do in this life. GOD TELL ME!
This here is what I know bout me:
I'm Seumas(Shay-mas)
Its MY NAME.
If you have a problem with that,I cant help you. I cant just go changing my birth cert.(I've already changed it once)
I enjoy a good conversation most and hate lonliness most!I love getting new stuff
Earth Wars : Attack of the Shopaholic! May it be CLOTHES to Tech-kies to Noise-makers and even books!
I've got a thing for Radio DJ-ing and Hosting!
Its really fun!
I love to spice up life with a lil SARCASM and HUMOUR! A lil can never hurt! But I just love it in full scale sometimes.
My personality is seen through YOUR EYES!
It changes at times and please never be too quick to judge! Because I might make a few wrong turns before ending up in the right way.
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