How much would it be to relive yesterdays, when you were just all bliss, say it be your childhood of the yester-years. I guess it was one year ago, when I was still happy and all was still fine. Imagine I was only caring of myself and no one else. But now, I'm too busy to care for myself when I have to impress others, be perfect for them. Even though so, I'm not saying that I regret of the change in me and my life. I'm glad being well-liked, but somehow it is the neglect. Have you ever felt, like you're trying to impress someone, being a perfect one for them, but you're actually doing the exact opposite. And in the end, we just drift apart when the person says, "I don't know you anymore."
Well, that is just a little scene.
What I'm to say is be true to yourself, be who you are.... Hell with the rest. LOL, but sometimes, I'm just a hypocrite.
Did you know how strong are Yesterdays? Beyond what you can think of, it is the only thing that has the power to crash dreams of the future, make just about anything turn obsolete and outdated. It can also take the most precious thing, Life.
Talking about how time passes us by, I'm graduating high school soon enough. The so called High School Experience will soon come to an end. Sounds sad..... *I think*
So time to hang up those white school shoes. WHITE?!?!?! I dont think they look white to me anymore. Those shoes were the bomb in my high school life. They brought me to classes, ran with me, play football, basketball.... You get the picture. But lets paste them all in the memoirs of our high school years, to getter with the sweet memories, sour, bitter, ?Salty? and also ?unani? memories....
But whatever it is, I can say that I have no regrets about what happened in high school. But it is just the mildest taste of the journey of life that lies ahead. Here is just the beginning, you meet your best friends, your true friends. Same goes to those bitches and back-stabbers that appear.
As time goes by,
As I grow "ripe-er"
Life embarks on a new journey. A new platform. A different stage for me to showcase what I got. To be honest, seeing major changes in your life aint alwasy the best thing. Changes may sometimes be good... Note the somtimes. but as I said, yesterdays eat away everything. You have to realise that not all that you wish for are serve on a plater to you, not all dreams are meant to come true, not all plans are to be exicuted. I know the book entitled "Seumas' Life Story" is written by me, Seumas. But it cant be denied that it is 100%, completely editted by Teh Eng Seng and Wong Yoke Lin(the parents). Its not that I say its a bad thing, parents knows best, but I want to feel respected for my choices. But all in all, I'm very thankful for all they gave me...
Here is just another motto of mine,
Live today to the fullest, Let not regrets of yesterday rob you of today, Let not worries of the tomorrow hold you back from today, Live today to the fullest, and no regrets will there be in yesterday, Worry not tomorrow, as tomorrow will one day be today.
silenced at 10/24/2008 06:00:00 PM
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Just wanted Gossip Girl sean 2's first 3 episodes in a row. I really miss this series(I know, such girle show, guys shouldn't watch, but what the hell) For the first 3 episodes, yes it does move me, I guess watching each of the relationship unfold before your eyes, you just cant help but to reflect your own.
To conclude so. there is a little manipulating bitch in all of us who tries to get everything we want. So hey there is a Blair Waldorf in all of us. She's cool, hot and furious. She's a diva. Anyway, a person like her, Queen B wants acknowledgment, recognition from her companion. "3 words, 8 letters, say it, I'm yours" or " Show me you want me and that I'm not just some delicate flower in your life". If she's of sort, what about us "mere" mortals. Yes, it cant be denied that a simple phrase does mean everything. Hearing it makes us get through the day. But would it be the same if it wasnt the special one who said it?
Even so, we do have the little angle of Vanessa in all of us at the same time. I mean when you do love and care for a person, you would really give up a lot for them or just have the thought of it if no actions were done. See what she done for Nate! I know I would have done the same but yet ther is no chance to show.
As for the Serena Van Derwoodsen in us. There is a rise and fall in any companionship. Till where I have watched, yes, we could forgive each other and try to start over. But "forgive and forget" isnt that simple. The latter proved to be gruesome. How long do you think we can stand lying that everything is gonna be all right if it aint settled? With everything we've been through. You make me the happiest but we have the same stumbling block all the time. Yes, I do want you. Yet there is always a "but". Ewwwww, I hate asses.... oppss that's "BUTT". Hopefully there will be happy endings, but in life does it exist? Now that's fantasy vs reality. Bit why not make fantasy IN reality.
Dan: " I though coming here was the right move, that everything will be all right, but I don't feel that way."
Dan:"I Still......" Serena: ".....(always) love you.
Well well well, we do try to move on but not all of us are lucky to be given a second true love. We might end up just like Chuck Bass, or should I say Charlie. We might get a wonderful sex life, but yet the genuine love we had will always haunt us in a way. How hard we try to say we've moved on, but we're always just lying. We still love our "THE ONE". Yet again another Serena scene. Why dont we just give and take. Take in all of it. Accept each other's flaws and everything else will get better in time.
So before you judge someone or point your stubby fingers at someone, look at yourself , we're not so different as you think. we're all THE VICTIMS OF TRUE LOVE. only pure would be able to spark off this sort of feeling that cant be put in words. But the closest it could be related to is "LOST" or perhaps its the magic of L-O-V-E, maybe side effect sounds better....... its still an enigma....
Here is a song hand picked by me for the Serenas and Chucks..... or Blairs and Vanessas alike....
It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realise that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok
[Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remaind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I believe in And I know that time will heal it If you didn't notice boy you meant everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok
[Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will
[Chorus: X2] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
silenced at 10/15/2008 03:29:00 AM
They came and they left...
It all happened kinda fast. My uncle, aunts and cousins came down for a little visit during the one week Raya holiday. It was just fab. One of my favourite cousin came to pay a visit. Weee...
As usual, we brought them around Penang tour. And honestly, as a Penangnite for as long as I can recall, I've never been to a lot or maybe most of the places listed under the UNESCO World Heritage list. What a pity, but this time I had the chance to visit the clan jetties, Khoo Kongsi and ofcourse the famous Fort Cornwallis(Famous?? not quite)... But as you know, with recognition, this places start to charge fees for entry. i think RM3 to 5 but its kinda worth it...
Here are some photos of Khoo Kongsi...
After that we went to have some C-O-C-O-N-U-T... yeah... well we havd to eat the flesh in a kinda primitive way, using the shell of the coconut as a spoon. Well, I got Kimmy to demo... hahaha
Next stop, during the evening, to complete the trip, it has turned out to be a tradition to bring our visitors to my dad's restaurant... my dad aint a chef though...
anyway, I got some greedy pig on camera, caught "red-mouthed"
AIM..........
SNATCH................
GOBBLE.......
On friday, third day of raya, the whole lot of us went to Kedah, and this is the 2nd time I've been there and it is the second time I think the place isnt my kinda place, I'm a city boy, I think I can only survive in either paradise or a city equivalent to Penang City or more advance... LOL
And since It was raya, I was spotted sporting a baju melayu....
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL AND MAAF ZAHIR BATIN
silenced at 10/15/2008 02:55:00 AM
Saturday, October 4, 2008
It is the month of OCTOBER. It is my month. Seriously. So hopefully this month I will be much happier.
so let the countdown begin!
27 OCTOBER 2008
Honestly, there are a lot of things I want, but hey, that aint the best for me. The best present anyone can give me would be.....
THE GIFT OF YOUR TIME
silenced at 10/04/2008 04:38:00 AM
It is no doubt that the songs we usually hear lately and like or feel connected to it is because we are in the same boat to whoever who is singing that song. Happy tune or sad. We know what its like to be in their shoes and all we have to do is stay in OUR shoes. That easy! If we could write our own songs, a million tunes would I have made. But without much talent, we would have to opt to singing what others have written. But they, it doesnt matter what it is, as long as we can sing out what we feel.
My life have recently creased to suck. And i mean totally, everything is happening, but not the things that really matter much to me, not to say that nothing matters. But the things that I truely treasure, the things that made me today are still on hold and not really moving much and I really want it to. I havent had the best of times as I've change my lifestyle since a year ago, i guess, and now i dont quite like it. It is now tainted by the pass. I does haunt me from time to time, and ever so yet increasing. Till a verge of annoyance. But hey ho, if only things were moving on fine, I wouldnt have been so paranoid.
But I'm not blaming anyone but myself. Yeah, I'm that sorta person, taking in the blame for anything. :P
Anyway, the irony is here, " THE ANITDOTE TO MY BROKEN HEART IS DERIVED FROM THE POISON THAT SHATTERED IT " , that is what I knew quite sometime. But everything is always there blocking me from what actually makes me smile. My Bliss. Is is so that is why I never give up. I keep fighting and pushing? But hey, I know someday people will give in, and you'll get what you want. Good things happen for those who wait. I hope I've done mine. And when I do strike a deal, I wanna prove to you that I'm a mature kid(oxymoron) and I'll not break it again.
Its a give and take situation, at least try to make it fair, I dont wanna just keep giving when I'm not receiving. I'm not complaining or anything, but hey, who in this world would be THAT KIND??
But hey, night is darkest before it hits dawn. See I'm such an optimist. But is it for the right thing?? hahaha, I'm sure it is.
Anyway, what songs have been related to me lately, kinda sad songs but I'm seeing a turn around. :D
I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie Is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone the words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it ok I miss you
I've never felt this way before Everything that I do Reminds me of you And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor And they smell just like you I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it ok I miss you
We will be for each other Out here forever I know we were Oh...
All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I do I give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me Yeah...
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone All the words I need to hear will always get me through the day And make it ok I miss you
Closed off from love I didn’t need the pain Once or twice was enough And it was all in vain Time starts to pass Before you know it you’re frozen
But something happened For the very first time with you My heart melts into the ground Found something true And everyone’s looking round Thinking I’m going crazy
But I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vain That I keep on closing You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling
But nothings greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vain That I keep on closing You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open
And it’s draining all of me Oh they find it hard to believe I’ll be wearing these scars For everyone to see
I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vain That I keep on closing You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love
This here is what I know bout me:
I'm Seumas(Shay-mas)
Its MY NAME.
If you have a problem with that,I cant help you. I cant just go changing my birth cert.(I've already changed it once)
I enjoy a good conversation most and hate lonliness most!I love getting new stuff
Earth Wars : Attack of the Shopaholic! May it be CLOTHES to Tech-kies to Noise-makers and even books!
I've got a thing for Radio DJ-ing and Hosting!
Its really fun!
I love to spice up life with a lil SARCASM and HUMOUR! A lil can never hurt! But I just love it in full scale sometimes.
My personality is seen through YOUR EYES!
It changes at times and please never be too quick to judge! Because I might make a few wrong turns before ending up in the right way.
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