Friday, May 8, 2009
I've havent been updating my blog lately as all the surprises in life and the spices has become idle for the moment. I guess....
There hasnt been anything significant going around lately, but yet I still feel fine and content. But at certaint times I do miss home and mum and dad and my sisters but not to the extend of depression.
As for studies, I really got to step up to the occasion and yes, I've been slowly improving.. But I need to improve fast. Sometimes thinking that I am to do Med, I kinda freak out. I am not too sure about it myself. Insecurities such as lack of faith in myself, thinking is this the pathway I really want and so much more. Sometimes all this thinking is just too overwhelming in a bad way that it clogs up my brain and thus inhibits my ability to focus on whats really important at present.
I really have grown in terms of maturity in mentality though I have so much more to learn yet. Sometimes I think ahead too much but it doesnt really help me as that is not whats gonna bring me far. I know dreams makes things endless but it doesnt work that way if you dont take a first step.
I do at certain times strat comparing myself with others and making myself feel miserable. And for that, my cousins have been telling me to be thankful for is given to you and not compare. And to build self confidence.
I really need a sign on what I really wanna do in this life. GOD TELL ME!
I feel lost...
silenced at 5/08/2009 11:35:00 PM
