Saturday, April 4, 2009
Pretty much we only learn when we fall. That's kinda the way the world revolves. How many times have we said that we would learn to appreciate things before they are gone - countless. But how many times have this piece of lesson been executed - nil!
They came and they left when the sun rose on Monday morning. My family had a long 2 weeks in Sydney. And When I think of it, how much I've missed them. But yet I regret not spending more time with them. I could have been with them but I chose to do some other things. I chose to go for a party than dinner with them, I chose to go for a volunteer job at Colour than go shopping with them. I chose to go to the HIllsong Album Recording and not visit them Blue Mountains with them and missing the chance to say good bye in a more "emotional" way.
For this short two weeks, I could have done so much, but I didnt make the most out of it. Sending a false impression to my mum that I wasnt keen of their visit. And for that, I feel like I've wasted their time and money. Dashed to the ground.
I felt like telling mum how much i love her during Tracy's "Father Daughter Dance", but yet my mouth did not utter a sound. I even watched as Shannon slowly grow up and turning into a woman that she should be. Proud of her. And When I look at her, how much I miss Siobhan who couldnt make it to the wedding. As for dad, he turned into an inspiration.
Nag are what they do, but hey, they are my parents. And some day when I am one too, I will understand the true reason and meaning in their hearts.
Family is always there, when you're up and down. I'm in a state of mind that I cant trust anyone, as you might not know what is in people's mind and soul and heart. I know I can trust my family when I cant even trust me.
Life has entered a changing phase where I think I gotta grow up and be mature in almost every aspect as I've been so well wrapped under my parent's safety blanket. I need to learn how to live life on my own and make the right decisions. I need to brush up on my character as well as open my mind to receive things that benefit this growth! Having mum and dad around not only made life easy, but it showed me how much i really need mum and dad. When I'm messy, mum is there to clean my mess and when I'm not able to talk myself through, dad is there to talk me out of it.
Although there is no doubt mum and dad will always remain where they are in my heart, but the little boy in their eyes and in their heart is slowly expending, slipping away unintentionally. Day by day, as I pack my stuff for school or uni, a day lost again for mum and dad to cuddle me as I walk out into the society and into my own life.
This was my speech on dad's 50th birthday party :
A century not too old.
But Only half to go.
Slip off hands the time with me
as a day I pack for school.
Gracious heavens perched thou on humble lands.
Ay father, 50 years from the day marked with sticks of four(11/11)
With only love's light wings.
O'father, you perched beyond walls.
For nothing can hold love's daring attempts.
Compassion blessed upon thy companion
and may it be God sent task for a troubled son.
But thy love trespassed limits of my stony heart.
Melted is yonder of cold hearts.
And sprung the birth if what is I to be.
Thou be judgement for how I've walked.
In thy hour,
thy Joiyuex anniversere.
Champagnes pop like sirens singing to charm men of sea.
Like chime of church bell rings.
Dine and wine as heaven's creatures grant you prosperity,
longevity.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY OLD MAN! MY FATHER
-end-
PS: F.A.M.I.L.Y = FATHER AND MOTHER, I LOVE YOU!
silenced at 4/04/2009 09:57:00 PM
