Saturday, October 13, 2007
I use to think that my bubbly personality is welcomed by all, or was it? To me, I was an easy character to get around with. But for the pass week, I had my personality breakdown. When I look into the mirror to reflect myself, I see nothing. I no longer know who i am. How far I've
drifted from who I am. I was a complete stranger to myself.
The were bugs in me, I finally found my weakness and seek for help. I turn to You.
Dear Father, Lord, God
I
truly seek refuge in you for I've done things which has been so disturbing. I think I've got a confession to make. I want You to help me change those weak points, cleanse me, make me new. Get rid of the things that
shouldnt be there. You got me thinking after the pass week. I think I've went too far and now return back to You.
Here are the things I wish to be punished or condemned and then change for the better.
1. I think too much, which leads to assuming.
2. I assume to much which leads to suspecting.
3. I suspect too much which leads to the abuse of trust.
4. Abusing of trust is the least I want to do.
From there I've hurt so many people who were once close to me. No matter how much I try to make it up to them, it is no longer in my power to do so. All I need now is Your will. Only You, Father Lord God can mend those broken hearts. I pray hard for you to make them happy. In turn, take their sorrow and embed them in me. Let me feel what they feel when I did such a thing to them. Let me feel the hurt they felt to understand that I'm not who I think I am anymore.
With further inside looks of me, I finally am able to identify the true evil that cases the rest.
I care too much for the people around me. I care too much
that I turn "
KAYPO"(busy-body) that leads to thinking too much which leads to the abuse of trust.
They put their trust in me and I just abused it. Trust is something that matters so much. I think I'm stupid.
Father Lord God,
HELP ME! Get rid of those sins I've done. I seek refuge now.
Bless those who I've hurt. Heal them. amend them. For they are my brothers and sisters of Christ. Take care of them.
In Jesus name I pray,
AMEN!
silenced at 10/13/2007 01:07:00 PM
