Thursday, October 11, 2007
At first, I acted on pure
selfishness and got jealous
whenever you know who got closer to you. Normally I'll listen to you talking about your feelings for him and the problems the both of you faced. In the beginning, it was an obligation, my mission was to make you happy. I tend to do that as I care for all my friends.
In the starting, I met you when you were still
fidgeting about how you can never let go of your ex, saying that no one can replace what you both had. Like I said before,I f
elt empathetic for you and thinking by lending you an ear to listen will ease your emotions and make you happy. To cheer you up. I tried to constantly give you hope that you will love again.
What turned out to be a caring friendship among us soon hit its toll on me, I always felt bad when you were sad and was left in sadness when hearing about your pass relationship. Soon I started falling for you through sympathy. When we met, you sounded low in self-esteem because you lacked of love. That prompted me to wanna give it to you, fill up that emptiness.
During than, I though I was crazy actually falling for you. And I
didnt want things to go bad if I told you. I tried to ignore the feeling but always left thinking more about it, just like you.
During one short week where we
didnt talk, it got me thinking. "I've never cared for someone so much to the extreme that kept me wondering about their status every now and then," The longer the pause was, the more worried I got. This was the same
week you were stressed out and I totally understand as you were trying to win the heart of someone else. I was really happy when you were overjoyed when he had accepted your invitation to hang out but for some reason heartbroken.
Eventhough it hurts for some reason, I really enjoy and look forward to your updates on what you're both up to.
The thing that I admire most is the love and care you have for him, first of all, it would be the joy he brought to you when I failed. I use to think you took me for granted as I'm always just the ear. You've never showed interest in MY topics but I
didnt mind as humans just don't appreciate what they
didnt fight for. It never dampen my spirits to try harder and go the extra mile, till even getting sick running in the rain for your reload. But to me I love to help you out even if the calls you made and the
sms you sent
werent to me.
I do
apologise for not being totally honest with you at some point and you deserve every right to be mad at me
To fall for your honesty and how naive
you are, adding my care and love for you with the touch of sympathy, It was the true you I fell for.
Even if I had to give you up for the better, I'm prepared. Because at the end of the day, seeing you smile is all that matters no matter where the love is coming from.
Even if we go adrift, you'll always have a place in me and I'll always treat you how I have now and never differ, no matter as your
bro or as your friend but never a stranger.
silenced at 10/11/2007 01:59:00 AM
