Thursday, September 27, 2007
It has been a week of endless boredom, sometimes there are sparks that bring the feeling of lonliness to ease. Nevertheless, I've been feeling further apart from some of my friends. Keeping the flame burning for eternity is never my thought but always keeping it warm while it is still lively.
Are they busy, you wonder. All of your progress of friendship and brotherhood and sisterhood has all put to a halt. Getting new ones are always a quick remedy but never the best, though you may find some being good enough to take their rightful place on your social chart, but the time you spent with the lost will always be empty.
I accpet my new friends with open arms and a big smile. Most of the time I get along really fine. We could talk, we could share stories and laugh t the silly things we've done. I always wanted never dying friendship which is impossible. Although so, I try my very best to built on what we have, but getting the other person's co-opertation is crucial!
Then again, I think I show too much enthusiasm, has it scared off people? I try to mild it but somehow it is always embeded in me. I always think I should get back what the same kind of treatment from my friends as how I treat them. This has never been the same, it has stayed imbalanced. I do appreciate them, but always hope they show the same too.
As we grow apart, I try to rekindle the flame as if I did something wrong. The truth is, I feel a need to do it, cause someone has to care about the friendship. But when it gets me hanging, I try over and over again. Hoping one day I might work things out. Though at times, I told myself I doing too much, why not wait, but that never happens for I think of friends when I'm lonely.
I hope friends will accept who you are. Even if you done something wrong, I'll forgive you. I try really hard to forgive those in the past, and it has always result in success, I bet I can still do it now. A good first impression is what I try to give people, because I'll never know what will happen when the second impression overlaps the first.
ps : I'm Sticking out to the end!
silenced at 9/27/2007 05:35:00 PM
