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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Its back to the old routine. Wake up 6 in the morning, wash up and off to yet another boring day school! The only thing that keeps me going besides having it as a resposiblity is the FRIENDS! The BUTTIES!

With so much in hand,
This means less time on the net and BLOGGING!
How sad, but I'll post up once in a while

And those net pals of mine or those friends and brothers and sisters who use the net to connect with me, I'm gonna miss you guys for a while, but do stay in touch! SMS me or leave me a offline msg on msn or on friendster or send an email. I look it up once in a while!

Au Revior!

silenced at 8/29/2007 12:10:00 AM

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Just recently, a vision was introduced to school, the aim of it is to turn the school into a World Class School by the year 2010 and this vision is called "The School's Mission".My school is quite old and is celebrating its 90th anniversary this year, only last week was a series of great events, exhibitions, musical concerts....

I think just because they want to become a World Class School or just to impress the old boys. (Honestly, my school is very well linked to the world and can be counted quite prestigious, it has produced much respectable people across the globe). Some of them coming from mainland China, Hong Kong, Thailand, UK, US, Singapore, Australia, New Zealand and so on. The school has a good reputation but I'm not sure if can survive my generation. HAHA


A series of project has been completed, some started as early as last year. To date, I'm proud of one thing our school owns, that is the astronomy's observatory deck, which has a simple but nice dome and world class telescope which can see starts, sun spots etc. How many high schools in the world owns one, I know its the only high school in Malaysia that has such a gadget.

The next thing that has been recently added to the 25 hector school compound is an enclosed basketball court which was completed late last year. This means we can still play even when it is raining. Now thats useful!


But the biggest change was to the main toilet and canteen.


The main toilet has always been the same since my grandfather's time, so imagine how old and stinky it has been. There are many other toilets in the school, but this has always been the biggest but the stinkiest and dirtiest! Someone could have suffocated and died in there anyday. Soon the school found the problem to that, the drainage system around the toilet doesnt work so well, so the pee actually soaks into the soil outside the toilet making it smell all around. All this ended up with a new toilet which now has better "plumbing system". But its not of world class standards yet LOL. It use to be a real "antique"!


Our canteen moved from a normal cemented floor to a nicely tiled flooring all over. Even the usual metal tables and wooden benches that were old were replaced by, what some people calls it "Mc. Donald's Style Table". Actually its just a long plastic+wood table linked to a also plastic+wood bench which cant be moved and is all sealed to the floor. Now thats more like it. In works to beautify the school, a "Plasma or LCD" TV ( Please note the " ") are hung on the ceiling which can be watched by students while eating or waltz-ing in and out the canteen.

I know it kinda rocks... Truth is it aint that blur(jus that i'm taking it from a distance) and what you see is a documentary on the WWII! Neh it aint that. It's stupid, something so nice is used to publish the schools advertistments like who won what in what... and showing something about the school. What you see here is a black and white photo of our school main building back in mid 20th century.

They should play a movie or something and not this, I prefer National Geogrpahics than this at least it will be educational! Maybe later in the future they might use this for screenings.

ANYWAY, to reveal something, it aint a TV set. But a two-sided projecting glass screen which can be watched from both sides. This is how it looks like

This is a shot from the back... See the projector?? So its just some screen, hopely they link it to a movie playing device or cable tele! Put it to good use!

Thats all for now, by the time the year 2010 where the vision is to be achieve, I no longer am in this school. But I wish Chung Ling High School all the best althought its crumppling my style!

silenced at 8/26/2007 01:56:00 AM

Friday, August 24, 2007

silenced at 8/24/2007 03:29:00 AM

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Before the exams, I had to study but whenever I pick up the books, all I can think of is "After this is the holidays, what should I do?"... It was simple, going out, shopping, hanging with friends, sleeping, playing the Play Station, Blogging and more Outings!.... etc.

Seems like everything didnt go out as planned.. For this sad ONE WEEK holiday (3 more days remaining), I've been only wasting away...

The only thing I've done that is productive might be cleaning out my room! God, I didnt know I had some many books and papers I had in there. Someone could have died beneath the pile of books! It took me a few hours to really sort out everything! Now, my room LOOKS clean! But is it really clean? My drawers are just messy as I just hid most of the the stuff into the drawers.

I only had one outing to date, can't wait for the next one. It went out on the first day of holiday. To Queensbay mall (Penang's Longest Mall - I might break my legs one day while walking from one end to the other), which I always have a problem trying to get there and back! Its just too far!

I tried desperately searching for transport but was always left in vain! Finally I came to my last resort which was thinking the PUBLIC TRANSPORT. Only this month(August 07), the new bus system was introduced, Rapid Penang. So I thought why not give it a go. I think the times I've been on a public bus is less than the total fingers I have on ONE hand.

I was all set to leave the house about 11.30am and headed off to the nearest bus stop. I sat there looking at the passing cars... In a jiffy, a bus passed the opposite lane, so I just needed it to make another round or something.

Who knew his route was insanely long, I was sitting ducks for nearly 20 minutes before opting to another bus stop. It was then I got a bus in only 5 minutes or I'll have sued them!

It was not really very fast nor slow(moderate)... so we arrived at the Hub where the transit to the next bus is (I spent time studying the Route and everything... oOo). It was like a burning hell pot there, the sun was glaring and I was going to be barbeque lunch for someone!

After having my friends calling, asking me if I was coming, I started being annoyed by the whole system. It has been a 40 minutes wait. Finally Bus 307 arrived! And to add the bitterness, two of them at the same time... HOW STUPID!

I paid my fare which was worth the cleaniness and the cool air of the bus... But the chairs are seriously uncomfortable, those cheap palstic chairs, and there isnt enough leg space too!

So off the bus sped off to my destination, IT WAS DARN SLOW. He had to stop so many times.... So a journey that could have been 30 minutes turned out to be a 1 hour and 15 minutes journey!
Talk about being late, I had to skip lunch and off we(Me, Ashley, Charis, Alan, Jia Yi and Cher Yi) to the movies... thank God Charis was even later than me... hahaha

So the outing was still fun after all, worth all that stupid bus expirience!

I got back by sharing a cab with another friend to Gurney Plaza(still the best mall in Penang) and hang around a bit and left on foot back home!

So the rest of the holidays was spent, with my usual acts of slacking, sleeping, playing the Play Station(which lasted for a while as my dad kept it because of my sister's big exam), eating, chatting, TV and going out to church convention.

Update you guys bout the wonderful church converntion next time!

ps: A lot of outings were turned down as they were in Queensbay! I wouldn't wanna travel on the public bus so often

silenced at 8/23/2007 04:46:00 PM

On the 21st of July, which was also Ashie's Bday which I missed he gathering all because I went for a Radion DJ talent search contest. The contest which I was pushed to join by some of my friends and later got interested. It was one great expirience and I intend to strive till the very end!

The day started off lonely as I was the only representative from CLHS, I was surrounded by a lot off people, with some I barely know and mostly strangers. We started off with registration where a total of 29 contestants who were selected. After that we were lead up to a lecture hall by a bunch of students who later turn out to be mentors. ( there is a 3 mentee to 1 mentor thingy going on). We even got goodie backs that contained a LEVI'S Tee Shirt worth RM50+! We will have to wear that PINK tee for the competition!

SO the lecture about DJ and Radio DJ started around 9.20am. The intoduction was made by Ken, lecturer in KDU. He introduced what DJ is and the ethics of one and more stuff about it. Then, all the contestants were asked to intorduced themselves one by one, to him, other contestants and the mentors. There were many who did a very simple introduction but there were some like me who did extras while introducing ourselves and got roars and cheers from the over extroverts - the mentors!

Soon Breakfast was served after the introduction, it was then people started approaching me and I started making new friends, so things started out well, no more loneliness. I met people who were from as far as Bukit Mertajam. It was really awesome. The greating about going alone, is that you're forced to make new friends(Kazvyn, David, Stephen, Monica, Mitchelle, Yiao, Eleya etc), and I love making new ones!

After breakfast, lectures continued and this time, I stared to showcase my cheeky side by asking questions and bombarding some weird ones as well. Soon after it was the luch time. It was then, the mentors slowly approached me one by one. And everything went great. Loved how they treated me, and it was great having to know them and speak to them. They turn out to be really cool friends. The include Justin, Adrienne, Wendy, Wanida, Deborah, Joselyn, Winnie, Enrique, Micheal, Tsu(didnt really talk to Tsu)

After lunch, we were divided into groups of 3 and we all have a mentor. Mine was none other than Adrienne, she got the looks and talent and is really out spoken, so I'm proud that I'm under her (but i still get extra help frm the others). After being divided, we started off learning on structures of a radio show, how to run one yourself, basic annoucing skills and script writing. It was also brain storming time where each and everyone of us had to contribute some knowledge.

OH YA, my other two team mates cum enemy(coz they are still my competition) are Yiao and Mitchelle! Both of them are really cute and hilarious at the same time!

After that, we practiced and practiced and off we went to check out the recording studio, that is where I met my pal for the next few weeks (DJ Console). The recording studio was really up to standards, being it the best in the nothern region, I was hounoured to be able to be there and learn so much about those expensive gadgets in there. Soon after we all got our turn to run our show and work our hands on the console...

At first I got really frustrated cause you really need to focus and when you panic you tend to press the wrong button and everything goes hay-wire! It was really fun and cool, so cool even ice cubes are jealous!

They day ended with more practice with scripts and DJ Consoles and more talking and swapping of phone numbers and emails.

I'll be seeing all of them for the next few weeks and hopefully for the years to come cause most of them turn out to be great friends...

The competition has just begun!
PS:Wish me luck!

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:33:00 AM

It has been a while I went out as a member of BGSCJY, and we recently went out on the 14th of July, so that made a back to back outing for me, with the Smart 2007 dinner just last night. This was the outing where I met the latest installment which is "Y", it stands for Ye Ern.

Lets zoom in the day, Since it was a public holiday, I had my mum dropping me off at Gurney Plaza. It was there I met up with Beatrice and Ck first. Upon arriving we had a bad start, Gerald was in a bad mood and might not be coming. We called and called but only end up having the "The number you have dialed is not in service. Pls, try again later" ringing in our ears! Boy that was annoying! But we never lost hope!

At last, after meeting Ye Ern, Gerald's childhood friend, finally! I gave her the pleasure of calling Gerald to convince him to coming to Gurney. And yes it worked, at last! She called up the mother first before calling Gerald. I'll just spare you the details about that call.

While waiting for him, the 4 of us went to have breakfast/lunch and then I and Ye Ern started talking happily, like we have met ages ago, to my horror, we did have the same tution class back when we were in primary! I didnt know! Such a small world!

Then Gerald came, coming in moodily, you could see a lot of emotion in his eyes, it was red and tired, it was as though it was poping out! Soon after, we left for Red Box and started singing madly, but Gerald was stll sitting at the corner staring at us while we scream the verses of J-Pops, English songs. It was crazy! But Ger sang one song and soon lost it and dash out for breakfast. CK did most of the singing and occasionally much on the lunch that was included(shouldnt have ate outside)

I went off to find Gerald after the worried Beatrice lost him while following him, she thought he was going to McDonalds. But it took me less than a minute to spot him in Starbucks. I sat next to him and started talking, hoping he might share whats on his mind and help out and make him feel better. It was a sucess, he started talking and soon we were warming up, but too bad, Beatrice had to interupt when she came sitting on a seat next to us. Haih.... Gerald fell silent after that! AGAIN!

Joel called, saying he was here and then I told him to meet up in red box, so the 3 of us left Starbucks and met up with Ck, Ye Ern, and Joel in red box. ( oh ya, i met up wit some sch frenz there too, there were a lot of sch mates there that day)

we sang a few more songs till the clock strucks 3.30 bcoz that was the time our Harry Potter movie starts... or was it....

But when the clock strucked 3.30 they still wanted to sing so we continued as they thought they might skip the ads when we reach there. We did have good seats so we kinda waltz our way in. At the cinema gate, we got our tickets out and shouted! it was a 3.00pm show! we were already 40 minutes late! OMG!

But no worries,we went in, just face the fact and watch the movie. Honestly the movie wasnt that good because it was just the starting part of the war, they were just preparing(for the 6th and 7th book/movie) so there werent much action to it.

After the movie we hanged around gurney, and Gerald felt way better. We ran around in Toys 'R' Us. hahahaha... and even went to the arcades.... As time went on, one by one they left for home.

Leaving me and Joel who will be changing shifts. At last our next shift came in at 8.00pm, it was to hang with Wen Qian, met up with her and her cousin, did a lil shopping and off we went for dinner. We did have a nice conversation. And it was then I heard bout a Radio DJ contest, and they were pushing me to join ( it was only later i was interested and joined)

After dinner, the cousin left, so I was like the weirdo walking with a couple but they were schedualed for a movie at 9.30pm... so after walking and talking for a jiffy, they left for their show, worried if i can get home, coz i had trouble with my transport, my parents were not around.

So without any transport, I walked around Gurney like a lost sheep and bummed into Jameson, who kept me company and his brother was going to fetch him home and was able to drop me off too... it was a good few hours that we were talking... Luckily I found him or I'm dead, and he was lucky that he found me or he'll be bored and will be dead too(nt much frenz left at that hour)
so finally I left Gurney plaza at 12am and arrived home at 12.15 am...

In a nutshell, it was a great day!

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:31:00 AM

It was Friday the 13, and most of it would think it was the black Friday and would be really unlucky... but i thought mine turn out fine, and better than fine! It was Awesome!

On the day itself, I had the glamorous student nights out, which was the Smart 2007 dinner, which a lot of students from various schools would attend, wearing lavishly and attending the dinner which was held at E&O Hotel. Just by hearing the name of that hotel, makes me go "Wow, they did a great job for the hotel this year!"

I arrived there a lil ealier than most of the people and spent sometime catching up with friends I've havent seen for quite some time, like Edwin, Kathrine, Edward, Joyce, Penny etc.

People who were attending that night were dressed in nice formal wear. Even I wasnt left out, i took some time choosing an outfit.... After all, it was one of the things in my social calender!

Soon after I was seated on my table and started a great conversation with my friends, Joel and Wen Qian finally arrived, they were seated next to me, and that was just awesome. Honestly, they both look stunning.

After coming back from a freshen up period, the dinner kicked off with Grace dancing 2 numbers, it was really entertaining. With different and a entourage of what i can say great Masters of ceremony, it made the night better!

After a few speeches, dinner was served, it was really quite a line up of food, not bad compared to other years when i was the MC. What do you expect, it was a better hotel indeed.

Again there were dances by Grace then there was a Fashion Show sponsored by Body Glove.... that must be the work of Benjamin, being able to pull something like this off... after all he's...(opps cant say)... it wasnt bad having some of them strut the stuff down the catwalk, but ofcoz some of them made laughs. LOL.

The night went on with a Drama, which I can say the actors werent bad, they were actually brilliant, especially Joyce, her acts were real, as specially when she does a spilt personality scene, that rocked! And man she could cry. Overall, it was a drama worth seeing!

Just one thing about the night, it was the medium they were using, normally they would be speaking in English like the last few years, but this year they opted for Chinese which some of the guest did not understand. And they had a lil problems with the mics, it kinda ruined a lot of stuff!

Awards were also included that nite....

....The dinner went on till late in the midnight, and after when it ended, it was a great photo opt, everyone took photos of poise! It really was stunning!

That night was something!

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:29:00 AM

Just bought some stuff and is now sitting down at the exact shop blogging. I'm now in a foreign land which is having their Great Sale(not that great to me)..... I'm now sitting in Top Man along Orchard Road, Singapore.

Before coming to Singapore, I've been shopping excessively in 1Utama and Midvalley back in KL, Malaysia. Back there I got a few neat stuff. It was really easy to get something once you laid eyes on it.

Days later, I arrive in Singapore, which has a new shopping experience. Its all the BRANDS. There are countless Burberry, LV, Dior, Jimmy Choo, Gucci, Prada, Fendi, Feragormo, Ralph Lauren, Hugo Boss... shops all around Orchard road. Especially the Takashimaya Emporium! Its just vogue! I cant believe I'm at such close proximity to such wonderful brands.

The weird thing that I've never seen before is the way people actually line up in a row just to do some window shopping in Louis Vitton. Althought there are much sales here, I can tell 100% they are still so expensive compared to when UK is having sales... Its just a pain looking at the price and having to think of the rate and actually thinking more than twice what the actual price is in RM.

Sometimes you'll "bump" into the items you bought back home, and compare the price... I'm quite happy to say that with discounts, the price of the thing back home is way cheaper. Even without discount it might only be a few bucks away... YAY!

When you're here, what I use to call good brands some how seem cheap here. Like Guess(this one is for sure, most girls carry LVs), i don't see much people wearing them or looking at the shop. Most of them have Burberry, LV, Ralph Lauren.... Its just like different worlds.

But yet its still is a paradise to SHOPAHOLICS, but when you have lil money, the game ISNT fun! I hate currency rates. Its not fair that my currency back home is lower! But I'm glad there are still stores that make this Sales great again. making prices drop a lot lower, making you really spend time at the shop.

With a few pieces of clothes, I'm still happy.. Its not about the shopping environment, to me, IT IS GETTING NEW STUFF!

By the way, I'm going off soon, don't want to tag this computer too long and sitting in the middle of the store using the computer... off i go!

PS: to that certain someone who is standing behind me, reading what I'm typing, thanks for reading it.. and to be honest, my face is really getting red... I dont get shy normally, but this is just a weird sensation

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:26:00 AM

This happened weeks ago, I know why write it now. The noice of something is echoing around the house at this minute(the time i'm typing). And this little memory just shot right back in to my mind.So I thought of writing it down since i'm here.

I bet this may not have happened to most of you and maybe it will never happen. Sadly to say,but its true, "this" happened to me twice in my life. I know, what could he have done,right?(You'll have to wait).It is a lil stupid to be telling it aloud.

I was walking into the kitchen, located at the back of the house. I went in to find what i can get my hands on as my tummy was making sounds. I needed food, i'm at the state of dying in hunger.

I swung the door open. Normally it would have close automatically, but no it didnt. The mechanism got stuck half way leaving the door ajar. Only a tiny portion left till it was fully shut. As i got my stuff(food) i walked to the door. I pulled it but it wouldn't open. I looked up at the mechanism placed at the top of the door, so ready to fix it.

I needed to get out as soon as possible, i needed to eat. So without taking a chair nor a ladder, I tired to reach for the mechanism. Obviously it was too high up. So I looked for the nearest item to step onto. It was the SINK that was the nearest. YES, YOU HEARD IT,A SINK! I broke the sink, only half of it!

As I was taking the second foot off the ground, the whole sink started crashing down but only half turned to small pieces. I hit the door and it closed back to its original state. Finally the door can be opened, I'm free.

But who cares? Now, I'm in serious shit, just look at the broken sink lying in the floor. For me, I was lucky, I escaped with a cut. Although it was long but it wasn't deep. Thank God.Amen.
Weeks later,today, the new sink has arrived and those who have seen the half broken sink just keeps asking how did it happen, I feel really silly. But they keep telling me luckily you didnt have serious injuries. To those who said that, I can take care of myself, thank you!

And I said it was the SECOND time right?The first one happened when i was 6, I think. It was in the toilet above my dad's clinic. I climbed up to reach for the mirror and the WHOLE thing crashed. I walked out of the toilet unharmed! You say I'm lucky, I say I'm blessed. hahaha

Conclusion: I finally know that i'm too fat for the sink.hahaha

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:24:00 AM

Before I start with this post, I would like to apologise for leaving you guys hanging with my life and leaving some of you worried. There are some who I wish to further extend my sorries to.

First of all, my parents:
I'm sorry. I was at an absent state of mind. All I was thing was "me". I was too self-centered and was caught within my mind-boggling box. It was a silly choice I made without having to think over some of the issues rationally. I've came to learn my lesson.

Second would be the friends who have much contributed:
Firstly, Gerald Ooi... I'm sorry that i said you chicken out without having to get the clear picture of the situation and I'm sorry that you had to drag your dad all the way to get me when I had already left with another friend.

Second: Beatrice, you too came, trying to save me from the terror but only found no one at the empty bus stop.

Third: Joel, Thanks for talking and going through my situation together through the long phone calls and introducing me to Gerald Sellan.

So here comes the cream of the story: Gerald Sellan, Your words somehow was meaningful and hurtful enough to make me realise what a mess i've put myself in and finally making me decide to go home. I owe you a Molten Chocolate!

Finally, the person who gave me shelter and food and care while I was on this crazy journey : Yap Tsu Sheng and Family, I am sorry for including you guys in this conflict of mine, but you guys took it with poise and gave me great hospitality though at times I felt that I was just an extra burden.

And those who prayed or tried to contact me in any ways but had thier calls rejected, please accept my apology.

I know it is quite late to continue the story where I left hanging previously. At first I didnt think I would write it, but here I am now.

After the dramatic night, I called it a night after having teary eyes on and off. It was hurting deep inside as I knew it was really silly, wrong, crazy, outragous.... of me to do something like this. No one in the right state of mind would have executed such an act! Questions filled my mind, but no answers were made as my brain was frozen after the fright I had over what I did. Somehow, God permitted me to sleep.

But the doze was just for a short while, in a few hours my eyes just opened as if I just had shut them for a second. I was absorbing the layouts of the "new" bedroom. I stayed in the bed and dare not to get up as though there was something pulling me back, it was fatigue and stress that was the force.

I stayed there doing nothing productive for at least 2-3 hours. My mind was blank, my feelings were numb, i felt nothing! My phone rang, there it was, a message from my mum, I could tell the frustration she has and the sadness through her text. Suddenly a jolt pass right across the nerves, and I was feeling angry but then it melted my soft heart and it turned into sorrow. Slowly, my cheeks were wet and my eyes were red. I picked up the phone and started replying, it was a hard decision if I should make the reply.

After that, I came out of the room, wash up and went to join my host and the afternoon passed by with television as our third companion. His mother was a really good speaker, somehow she knew what I was going through and I can tell that she is very understanding and very caring. Nearly everytime when we are having a conversation, I always hope that my mum would be much more like her. But maybe its not that my mum is not understanding, but its the difference in our worlds and the same strong characteristics makes us clash when we try to communicate.
Before the eveing sun sets, I and Yap have started planning on how to get to the concert which I wanted to go with a few friends before all this happen. My little journey made people's fuse blow and end up walking out on my invitation, leaving me with 8 extra tickets. Honestly, I don't blame them or hate them for their actions. I deserved it.

After the function, I called up Joel who had been trying to help me since the previous night, and he hooked me up with one of his friends who is way older and ofcourse has more life experiences, Gerald Sellan. He gave out nuggets of wisdom like a old chinese "si fu"(master). The words made me regret everything I've done, I wasnt proud of what I did. It wasnt cool, it was nothing. One thing he said that really worked, " If you want to run away, go ahead and never go home! Don't you dare plan to go back after a few days!"

It is never too late to turn over a new leaf. After hanging up the phone, I started packing and told Yap's mum if she could drop me home, I knew at that point that I was doing something right and maybe give my parents a little surprise. After we had our last heart to heart conversation on what I should be come of after this and what should I do after this and made it clear. I was dropped back home.

Everything went just fine after that, we were able to tolerate each other, have fun like a family and talk without having to hide from one another. So out of the blues, there was something new.
Conclusion, I ran away for only 24++ Hours! I'm so dependent that I can never be too far away from home! Unless me!

And I've learnt my lesson and I hope with this I can help others.

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:19:00 AM

A huge silent war has been going around a house. The tension has been felt by some within its walls and even people yonder. It triggered hatred in the deeps heart core, but the war had not started over night but has been building for sometime.

But recently the war has went out of hands and most likely would one ran away just to save their lives. They rather stop it than letting the other side murder them.

After words and shouts and tempers were heard and shown around the dinning table, a boy at a the age which was a mere 16 ran to his room. With his head filled with all the negativity that has happened in his cage, he decided really deeply what must he do next. He had water flowing down his swollen eyes, which was the result of the past sleepless weeping nights. He hurried across his room and took a note book and tore the first empty page he could see, and started writing. As he wrote, the island was being showered, a heavy down pour had started outside the house.

As soon as he finished his note, he took a bag and stuff some clothes into it, he was such in a hurry he didnt have time to see what he had with him, he had no money, but his phone. He walked right to the door leading to the balcony, he looked at the road in front of his house, looking down the road he saw nothing, but an empty street. Then he looked down from the edge of the balcony, wondering how can he get to the ground floor, when he is only one level above it.
The rain water was blown by the strong winds, creating a wet looking style, and spiky hair which his mother would not approve of. He ran back to his room, but before that he looked down the stairs, looking at his father, sitting by the computer, he knew that was the only route he had to take. He ran to his room, looked at himself in the mirror and had a silent pause. Soon after he gave himself a nod, telling himself that he was ready, took the jackets from his chair and ran back to the balcony.

It was easy for a use-to-be wild child like him to climb over that ledge, he threw the bag down but no one could hear him, the rain had made it a silent escape. With his jacket around the pillar, he thought of using it as he slides down the pillar. With the slippery surface, the jacket fell to the ground while he was left up above. But he did not looked back, but took a tight hug around the pillar and slide down, but jumped slightly and made a rough landing which was heard by his dog. It barked, but he didnt wished goodbye. and ran for a pair of slippers outside the house, wore it, held his things and climbed up the walls of his home, which was trying to keep something out or maybe in.

The wall was way too easy though he was short. He ran right down the road which he was looking before, took a turn at the cross road. The rain had not made the journey easy, adding more weight on him. People of the streets who were hiding from the rain would have thought he was some thief or something with a big bag walking in the rain.

He ran to the nearest bus stop and sat there, thinking what should he do next, he tooked his phone and called his friends. His first try was a bummer, the friend freaked out and didnt come to the rescue. It was only after the second attempt did another friend bugged his mum, and they both came zooming with their car. He had much trouble talking as he felt scared, cold and lost.
But his heart had a burst of joy which he had not felt for sometime. He sped to the car of his friend's which was right across the road. His heart was pounding fast, hoping that the friend might not just drop him home.

They understood him well, eventhough he was out of words. And let him alone as he texted his parents, telling them about the note that he had left in his room. He felt a leap of joy but at the same time he felt stupid. Was it wise for him to do something that outragous? Was it worth it?
But deep down he knew why he wanted to do this. He just wanted his parents to know what he and them had done. Love and care was what he wanted more, wanted to make a difference in what his parents have been doing.. he just wanted them to understand him and listen to him, he wanted a home, a home which he feels safe and not caged within. That was all he wanted, a "wake up" call, nothing more.....

He arrived at his hero's home, was given a room to crash for the night(S), and was let alone to cool down. He knew that he would have to tell them, and with a little left of himself, he told the people which he trusted what was happening..

As he was talking, he ran out of words. He was just wondering was it all worth it. And thought it was stupid of him, and at what state of mind would he done such stuff... But the expert counselor of the house said that he wasn't stupid but there was things that should have been overviewed.
Soon after, he washed up and went down for his very very late dinner. He was already settled, when he was told that his dad had already search this place as it was the only place of a friend's his parents knew. The owner of the house had asked the father to give him some time alone. He understood and went off.

Upon hearing that, the boy was at ease knowing that his parents would know where he is and not go all panicky. He felt peace at some part of his heart but not the other.
Just as he had got hold of himself. Some of his friends would not just let him off so easily, giving him a really hard time. But this time he chose the move to not let temper get in the way, but only looked at his friends battle it out. But he got annoyed and just left. But he knew they were just worried.

He went to bed and waited for the next day to arrive. But it will be time till he can fully get rid of the eye bags beneath his red eyes, and put a smile back on his face. If he were to meet his parents just yet, he will still not have much to say....only till when he is ready..

The story of the above may sound like from any drama with the heavy rain and stuff, but it was all true. The boy IS ME. I'm now at someone's pc writing this down. I'm in a very disturbing moment right now, so I appreciate if you just leave me and don't create more troubles for me. You'll never understand, and I hope you'll not want to understand. This is between me and my parents. If you want to control me by telling me what to do and not to do, or give me advice, I had it from my parents and I don't think I need it from you!


- off to rest now -

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:17:00 AM

All the while you have made your life as colourful as possible, making it idealistic, and it is always your getaway from the eyes of reality, a "personal-timeout". You gave all the fields a fair share of your life, spread your time across: Academic, Music, Sports, etc.

At times, you may have made the balance tilt due to the active involvement in something you are passionate about. Doing it was something you loved, but you knew that this activity could only be done in your youth, because you know that soon you'll have to move onto a career life and a family life, leaving all this in the pass.

My youth still has a long way to go, but now I'm barely holding onto what I really enjoy doing. The hopes and dreams of excelling in my sports are yet to prevail or to come true, but yet something is always on my tail, pulling me back. Creating a big barrier which I have to overcome. Normally, the solutions would be sacrifice. It has always been a lose-lose or a win-lose situation.

Recently, I was given a prestigious opportunity to compete nationals and go Internationals (with an easy route). To do so I had to have full attention on something, but you'll have to juggle all your other stuff at the same time. The problem rose when I lost my grip and "dropping" all my responsibilities. In this case, it was my school work. I didnt have the motivation to do my work after training, you get really exhausted and then you lie dead on your bed, just hoping it will complete by itself. I set the alarm and plan to do my work after waking up but that was never a possibility, I'll just snooze right through to the next day, leaving the homeworks for the next day.

But as the days went by, I started to slack on everything. I was losing myself spiritually and emotionally. I would be wandering about though there was something I had to do. So what happen to the things I normally do? It all turned into nothing. I just followed blindly.
Until something hit me, it was then did I had to hand in my homework, I realised that I had to rush like some crazy mad cow. During then, I asked myself," What have I got myself into? I'm just living out a dream that was now empty."

As I grew, I started to learn that there isnt something called a "perfect life", you may plan how you want it to be staying really close to perfect, but not all of it come in your favor. At some point, I gave up on everything which i felt "intimate" with and broke down. These included my love for athletics, the urge to pursue and explore Karate, the gain of experience in Young Enterprise, etc.

The horror was that, academic would replace the time taken to do those activities mentioned above. It was all replaced into tuition! I cant believe it!
At the point of getting hit by what I threw (what I did always comes back to me), I had no choice and all my will was given to God.

After the tears had dried, the scars had healed, I felt like a new person. In the course of healing, I picked up a few new gigs and look at things in a new way and walk it differently from how I use to. I may become fatter due to the lack of exercise (and enjoying food which I love) compared to my previous schedule.

At this time of disturbance in myself, I hope people will tolerate me. I've been making choices without thinking and offending some people. It still is a long journey to recover from my "LOSS"(not a major one), and it stars here.

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:13:00 AM

It was only last weekend(19/1/07-21/1/07) that I had been to KL just for my cousin's wedding. After the traditions of weddings where ther groom fetches the bride home and so on(you know the rest)...

It was after the wedding did we( me, my dad, sis, and cousins) decided to go to town and do some shopping. It wasnt that fun when it came to an end where hands went black!

It started to rain heavily as we went to IKEA, where my dad wanted to buy something for the house. While he is doing his shopping, we will be going to the Curve to do ours. In the journey, we felt that the car wasnt right and it was as though someone really fat was sitting at the corner, forcing the car to lose its balance. The journey wasnt only slow, but it was "horrifying". It was only my dad's first time in that car, my cousin's car. And he had to watch her back, making her feel pressured! Since it was raining heavily, we moved at a really slow speed, looking at all the signs(you know the KL region has bad roads that make you go crazy!). Step by step it moved and there was a sudden brake but the car still slid a bit due to the balancing. It was about to kiss the car in front of it which was making a corner!! Screams from the girls could be heard from the corners of my ears! Some of the sound wave event went directly into the ear drum!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

But it was just a false alarm! Luckily, nothing happened. After a few turns and U-weees, we finally arrived at Ikano Power Centre where IKEA is and left my dad there to shop while we take the linking bridge to the Curve.

It was packed, PACKED! With people eating at the wonderful restaurants and people snooping around the bazaar which only opens during the weekends! The open air bazaar still had customers although it was still raining, not that heavy anymore.
But that’s not the story....

This is:
After the Hour ended, it was time to leave the place. On the way out, partial of the car couldnt get pass the speed hump. But after a few tries, it moved right pass it! Thank God. But not yet, troubles weren’t over at that moment. By that time, we had a flat tyre!

We drove to the nearest petrol station which wasnt the nearest, why, because it was far...LAME! The people working there didnt bother to help us. My father open his big mouth,"Wah, first time in your car and I have to help you change tyre?? HAHAHA!...Now, now, you(me), young boy will have to learn how to change a flat tyre. Go change"

I used about half an hour to change the flat tyre. Fill it with air and got grease all over my hands! The other cousins(girls) watch and eat while I work!!! Hmmpphhh, but a man gotta do what a man gotta do. So the work continues and soon ends with me trying really hard to wash the grease off with lots and lots of soap! But I didnt have to lower the car, luckily one of the girls said that she wanted to learn and have a lil of the experience. Now that is what I call awesome!

After the cleaning, we zoom back off for dinner at by the time we arrived back, it was 10.15 and people who came to the dinner to visit the newly weds all heard our story. The night never ends, as the ambience of the house was sky high.

I guess, it's not such a nice job but the experience is really needed by one! No matter if it is a guy or a girl.

On top of that, the driver doesn’t really have to treat me to something. It was all in the day's work.

silenced at 8/23/2007 06:05:00 AM

It was during breaktime that I was caught right in the middle of the act. This post may not be something. But I thought it should go down in my history! It is one of the ?Best? thing that has happened to me? That it made my whole face really RED(Gerald said so)...

I was having Oreo(one of the best bickies in the world) for lunch, so you can imagine the choclate all over the mouth! In addition, stuck to your teeth! So I've been washing my hands at the teacher's basin in school, which students weren't suppose to use. But who cares! It was so near to where I was.

Gerald finished his lunch first and made the move, he ran to the basin and washed his hand. When he came back, I gave him THE LOOK and he went "What?" *in a tone higher than normal*

Newsflash,
The first time HE saw me using, he went like "How can you use that!"


Now he's USING IT! YOU HEARD ME! USING THAT VERY SAME BASIN IN MY FACE!
I finished my bickie and told him, "WATCH!"

Gerald, Hobart, and Keat Yang was there. They all looked at me as I walked coolly(waltz down) to the basin. I turn on the tap as watch from the flowing water to the boys and smiled. They all looked at me and smiled back.

With my hand, I fill my mouth with water and was gargling when Gerald was shouting(lipping) something like "OMG! LOOK! " His face was really red. So I knew something was wrong.
So I turned to the place where he was pointing, it was the teacher's staffroom door which was ajar and soon pushed open.

I stood there frozen, It felt like I had the time to run but didn’t because I had not seen the teacher appear till like 5 seconds later. Did time suddenly move at a slow speed?

With the water in my mouth I looked at the teacher, which was my Mathematics’ teacher. Luckily she was good. I went numb skull and was trying to explain myself but she was smiling as though she understood me with my near impossible water speech. I said something like "SORRY, it was the nearest and I have water in my mouth."

Then I turned and was about to walk to boys when I realised I still had the water in my mouth. I moved back to the basin and "emptied" the water when she was about to wash her mug. The teacher looked at me with a ?question mark? and gave me a grin. I looked and ran back to the boys after rinsing the basin for her =D

The teacher had came out just to wash her mug. To my horror, I'm having her class right after recess! But all went fine!

BYE BOOM!
till next time!

ps: I'm still gonna continue washing my mouth and hands there!

silenced at 8/23/2007 05:49:00 AM

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